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Wanted to write something profound this week. Not sure I have it in me though. I have been sleeping for like a week. Probably depression. Another old friend passed away the other day. Was a very good friend. But at some point years back our lives took very sharp turns in the opposite direction. But this news has me thinking of the friends I have lost the last few years. I want to think I’m unique in this but I fear that it’s becoming normal the older I get. My biggest concern now is that too many where not a matter of natural causes. So I can only deduce that I’m in this strange mid ground in age. My friends are dying but it seems that it is due to running out of luck. Not too long ago a friend passed away in a motorcycle accident. His wife broke her back. My nightmare to be honest. To vulnerable with bodies coming into contact with pavement. I have known too many that have gotten into accidents on those things. Another friend shot at his work by his wives boyfriend. Yes it is as horrible as it sounds. So many lives affected by that one. Then a drowning at night in a lake we where in so much. Guy was a good swimmer. Not sure if he hit his head or was just too drunk. And now a friend on the side of the road helping someone else. It really have me all the feels. Because the first thought was it sounded just like him. He was what I would call a pitbull. Fiercely loyal without any thought. And I wondered to myself why did we stop being friends where the issues that bad. How many pitbulls come along in one lifetime? Would I ever meet another? I just feel this is a horrible age to be that my friends are passing away. My grandparents are gone. My parents are gone. I realize now at some point in our lives we become orphans. We are supposed to be grown. Why did I not realize how grown up I’m supposed to be until others where not growing up anymore. Too many deaths. So be happy to be alive and be happy for those around you still alive. Dont be caught off guard like me, and realize that it’s time to be grown and expected to accept these things as an expected part of life.