Honest Evaluation Of My Past Self
Reminding myself to keep moving forward and change when needed
“I now see how owning our story and loving ourselves through that process is the bravest thing that we will ever do.”
The Fire Bird Is My Soul Animal Representing Past And Change
Relating to being born again through trial and error
Why the Phoenix you might ask. It is a bold choice I think for my logo. Many might be drawn to a softer more feminine choice to make a lovely first impression. I guess that is exactly why I went with the stronger choice in the flaming bird. To me it represents my past and the changes I have made.
To me the Phoenix’s story of being reborn from fire really gives me the feels in my soul. I look back at my past and I have always felt like in my life I I have lived many lives. With each major change in my life I made drastic moves. With a divorce for example I would not just leave my husband.
Phases In My Life
Making mistakes and moving forward
My next phase of my life would begin. I would leave friends and belongings behind. Because of my childhood and the many loses I really do not create ties to objects. Unfortunately I have also been present after the death of friends and family and witnessed what happens to those cherished items. No one wants them. Even pictures get tossed in trash bins.
I Am A Soul Leech
But recognizing my faults is a step closer
So I tend to become interested in my spouses intrests. I usually jump from intrests after immersing myself in them. I find that my spouses have more emotional ties to their intrests which bring out in me a deeper intrests.
Draining My Victims
Acknowledging my past for a better future
I find that I infact can be very draining for people. Although I do not have ties to things I tend to immensely have interests in people and their stories. I will ask about their past relentlessly. The details will be dug up. The more private or sensitive the better. I seem to have a talent for it. But I digress…
I am aware I was an asshole.
Back to my topic, the Phoenix fire bird really feels like my spiritual animal. Throughout my life I have endured many truamatic events. I came out a better person afterwards I believe. If I didn’t grow from my mistakes I wouldn’t be the person I am today. The mother that I was to my children wouldn’t have been created without the neglect I was subjected to.
*I take stock of my life and situation often. Journaling has been a really great tool for me. Journaling for me is often a positive experience. On occasion though I do feel it’s important to remind myself of aspects that I don’t like. This reminds me I’m glad I have improved. This is an example of grounding myself. I appreciate my husband more when I acknowledge my difficult side.
“In the times of doubt,
It symbolizes strength,
transformation and renewal.
For only from the ashes of who we were,
can we rise up to who we’re to be.”
More About The Legend Of The Phoenix
In Ancient Greek folklore, a phoenix (; Ancient Greek: φοῖνιξ, phoînix) is a long-lived bird that cyclically regenerates or is otherwise born again. Associated with the sun, a phoenix obtains new life by arising from the ashes of its predecessor.