The following sampling ( theout of thousands of altered photographs) are from my first attempts with applications found on the play store. These where started as an alternative to coloring books or other distractions I found in searching for ways others had found worked in calming thier anxiety or panic disorders. Many of the options I found with photo shop programs worked for me because the chore of finding stickers back grounds and other features where more calming to me then trying to stay in the lines of coloring applications. The biggest quirk to my fascination with this art form is that I prefer to only work with my own face. I also find that once I have started to work on a picture I am completely removed from it being me. I don’t see any of the finished pieces to be at all a likeness of my face or how I see myself. I do believe though that the feeling I have from each of the pieces is a depiction of how I feel or felt. My emotions are a rollercoaster, and something I have struggled with my whole life. There are very few people I truly feel any form of a connection with, although I am a truly caring and selfless person it is more of how I picture a person should be rather then something I truly feel. My emotions have ruled me my whole life and it wasn’t until recently that I really was able to embrace the notion that my feelings are not facts and in most cases are not to be trusted. Once I was really able to set my emotions aside at least most of the time, I was able to have a more functioning relationship with my husband. Spoiler alert though for those of you who have read some of my posts already, you already know I have children. Good news is they are all well adjusted functioning adults. My ability to recognize what I admired and found useful in others and then mimic those traits was passable enough in order to bring up my own children in a way that was much different then the way I was raised.
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